My daughter, Grace, was stillborn. One day she was growing and healthy and beautifully alive inside my womb, then without warning she was simply gone. Her heart beat until it didn’t. I always wonder what I was doing the moment that her heart stopped and
Last weekend I was driving down a stretch of I-81 in Virginia, it was pretty and quiet and I was several hours into a 15-hour drive. It was a nice and quiet respite of solitude after several very social weeks. Until, suddenly, a tangle of
I used to whisper her name to myself over and over again. “Grace. Grace. My Grace. Grace.” Her name was a lifeline that I desperately clung to through the waves of grief and pain and rage and sorrow that swamped me. Her name was my manta.